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work is @#$%%^

2009-11-28T06:29:00.000-08:00

its been weeks since B's in NS
& i guess i did pretty well huh.that i can tahan thru(:
but uh,thou i say its alrite that he kena confinement but i still find it very stupid
yes!its better than not able to meet at all but still very sad that i can only see him from 10am to aftn?SADD!
anyway i hate work now!!i noe its my full time thing to work but i hate it.
i hate the staffs for being so blur.i hate to be so stressed up.i hate to fan this fan that.
i hate to get work & not knowing my pay.i hate complaining to B.
i hate to run a store.
HAISSSS.
but if evrytime i just cannot find a job to love.& wana give up.i can imagine evrywhere i go i will be CMI.how?so worried!

2009-11-22T21:43:00.000-08:00

i dont want my B to kena guard duty but i know cannot.
i DONT WANT my B to kena confinement & knowing not able to meet him feels like shit!
:(((((((((((((((((((((
pls pls not!
anyway thanks for being so understanding to me when im so damn sick
its rly very xin ku & no one knows how i feel for this torturing 1 week except myself.
but still im glad ur there with me:D
sorry for not able to accompany u to the max.
anyway im goin so damn broke for all the UPLs & medical thing.AWWW!
cries!
how to not think of money man.sadded x 10000000000
feels so heart pain la

2009-11-22T21:32:00.000-08:00

What is pneumonia?
Pneumonia is an infection of one or both lungs which is usually caused by bacteria, viruses, or fungi. Prior to the discovery of antibiotics, one-third of all people who developed pneumonia subsequently died from the infection. Currently, over 3 million people develop pneumonia each year in the United States. Over a half a million of these people are admitted to a hospital for treatment. Although most of these people recover, approximately 5% will die from pneumonia. Pneumonia is the sixth leading cause of death in the United States

What are pneumonia symptoms and signs?
Most people who develop pneumonia initially have symptoms of a cold which are then followed by a high fever (sometimes as high as 104 degrees Fahrenheit), shaking chills, and a cough with sputum production. The sputum is usually discolored and sometimes bloody. People with pneumonia may become short of breath. The only pain fibers in the lung are on the surface of the lung, in the area known as the pleura. Chest pain may develop if the outer pleural aspects of the lung are involved. This pain is usually sharp and worsens when taking a deep breath, known as pleuritic pain.

SERIOUSLY it really freaked me out alot after visiting the clinic ytd nite.
its not a play-play thing if really kena this kinda thing
im so gonna love my life a lil more & treasure it more & not take it lightly that thinking small illness wont die.
1 week of fever & higheest even up to 39.like OMFG!
im burning!!
I HATE MINGMING!!!!
she dont even care bout her staffs.guess she must be hating me for taking MCs now
& also she confirm will condemned me.HAIS.i hate it.
i just wana work & earn my money,y isit so hard?
shes just making life diff for me.if u dont like me,think i CMI then might as well in the 1st place dont try to promote me up.anyway its sounds nice only.actually im over-working now as a so call MGR but is actually a MIT.
not being appreciated feels like shit.anyway life will be harder from now on.dont know if i can make it through not.its so damn challenging la.

2009-10-27T11:24:00.003-07:00

LOL.this's my 2nd blog cos the other one is a personal blog only for tard-iot& now that he's in NS & im super boredguess i will "talk" to myself here to keep myself less bored. (:its day5! its freaking slow when hes not aound manwhen im in shop,& theres nothing much to doi can only rot cos no one for me to msg withhe say still can sms him but like wth right?like messaging to the wall with no responseso life been pretty bored.work work & worktdy's off day stayed at home rot & rot & rot but kinda missed this kinda feeling cos its been some time since i really rest at home.evryday's routine is the same now,everyday will just look forward to THAT time which is after 930pm & patiently wait for his call.hahas.ever since he gets in to NS,ive learnt a lil more of being contented-as long as he's okay & doin well in there-as long as we get to chat a while evryday for that few mins-as long as he dont fall sick/or touch wood dont get hurt-as long as we are still WE& i will be happy now.

2009-10-27T10:38:00.000-07:00

tdy's work isnt rly smooth at all.
the more my life gets bad-er.the more i miss u B.
menses makin my legs cramp,backache & all :(
hopefully i can gt iluma's job?
got pros & cons oso la
always in dilema
i will miss my 13th mth bonus :( which i intend to buy myself a CHANEL necklace or smthg
so i guess its gone
& i nidta save more money for so many thgs
my 21st bday?save for holidays.save cos got alot of thgs to spend on
hmmms
there goes my CHANEL.*sobs
i thk im always backside itchy
HOW???

my NUA day at home

2009-10-26T08:35:00.000-07:00

its the 5th day w/o u by my side

sometimes i tot maybe i can live w/o u?BUT now i think my ans is no eh :(

thats v sad.means i rely on u ALOT! :((

bad bad bad bad

u goin in for 2 weeks is physically for u.for me its a torturing mentally torture for me

hais

so sad & sian can.!

im officially NOT a movie bum le cos of u

no one to rly go out with me le la

hais

even more no life

whats a good RD when i cant see u?

:(((

i feel so damn lonely!very very!

i feel so jealous when ppl all have their loving times w their boyfs

i dont have u NOW.

hurrrr

evryday is just like a routine for me ever since u went in

evryday waiting for that time to come & patiently waits for ur call

:((((

& i oso dont know whether each time u book out are we able to meet?

cos i will feel damn sad if we cant have our time tog.

HOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-20T11:04:00.000-07:00

BABY!

CAN U PLS DONT GO NS???

SAY YESSSSSSSS PLEASEEEEE!!

sighs.i know its impossible

hurrr.u shd noe how much i gonna miss u!

>;

*sobs

so pls dont let me worried & pls take good care of yourself in camp k.

cos i will be a gd girl & wait for my B

*pinky pinky promise!

Y u deep deep

2009-09-20T11:48:00.000-07:00

each time after our quarrel i just CAN'T sleep well.

each time i just get even more angry w myself

sometimes its just purely miscommunication & misunderstanding that ruins our r/s

when i think,he dont bother

when i seriously DID NOT think that much & didn mean HER related to his work

he insist that i thought that way

thats US.i guess

we are so good in quarrels & spoiling eah other's day/days

2009-09-12T11:29:00.000-07:00

妳想要的我卻不能夠給妳我全部
我能給的卻又不是妳想要擁有的
我們不適合也不想認輸
好幾次我們抱著彼此都是想要哭
妳常解釋這樣的一切都只是開始
我覺得是所有的一切早就已結束
不想再約束不要再痛苦
下一次會有更好的情路

2009-09-12T11:11:00.000-07:00

i dont know how & what other people thinks
for me,like what i say
I DO cherish each meetup with him
like looking forward to it even if we got no plans

like today,i was looking forward to end work
my B is picking me up from work & go back tog
why isit so hard for him to come over?like damn busy!
when i go over for 3568838653 times,its like 理所当然.顺其自然thing
im not complaining but i just dont uds

NO COMPLAINS that hes meeting his Buddy-for-life
better than he go meet his any BFFs
yea.
a gathering from 10+ in the morning at Sentosa til movie til late nite again?
& talk to me like i owe him money.NB
i thought we could go eat breakfast tmr yada yada~
THEN!!!!
people say ask u dont come then u really believe so
true that i dont want him to mafan his buddy to send him all the way to my place
the only reason i dont want him to come already is that
the rest im all so #$%^^&^&*
awwww
think maybe hes goin in NS already.
finding damn lotsa activities with evrybody.
u want prawning got prawning til wad time oso can.
u want supper got supper
u want tanning & games u got all u want
maybe its just that word ENVY!

i seriously think if he doesnt wana come tmr its ok
cos what for force him to come for a simple dinner when in the first place he dont like & want
i uds that he will feel awkward
also i dont have a god damn good mood to enjoy my RD

do we even know
ARE WE HEADING ANYWHERE?STAYING IN OUR ORIGINAL PLACE OR HAD IMPROVED FROM THE PAST?

OR ARE WE GETTING NOWHERE?

2009-09-07T11:02:00.000-07:00

be it a simple relaxing Redang trip

a damn shiokkk shop till i drop bkk trip

or my super love no.1 Taiwan

as long as i cn go with my B,im happy

2009-09-07T10:52:00.000-07:00

i wish to go another holiday w YOU too (:
i wish we could.
soon?
maybe not hor?hurhurhur
i believe there will be a time that we could
yea
Y

2009-09-03T10:14:00.000-07:00

too tired to think?
too tired to bother?
no la.i still care alot & thats why im so 烦 now
hurrr
HAPPY SUPPER-ING!& me.happy emo-ing!
i miss him but each time i thought of him w them im damn damn sian
like what i say,he got lotsa activities
& me,boring life,work life.
nvm.sooooooonnnn

2009-09-02T10:18:00.000-07:00

ahhhh.cnt cnt cnt!just cnt!
the moment i hear her name i just feel so bu shuang.
aft seeing baobei's msg that they are goin prawning or whatever,i just tel myself to cool down!relax!
ITS NTG!
BUTTTTT
sorry.i just cnt.
i need to cool down & pretend ntg.
sorry.

~~~~`~~~~
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
must wait til they finish that particular outing then will be better
& im just so confused.
i want him to be honest to tell me that he's meetin that person
but hais
dont know la.
FUCK

2009-08-27T10:50:00.000-07:00

it seems like i really need to find a life.
but-how?where?
hur.i dont know man.
baobei seems to always be so packed with so many activities.
its not a bad thing,at least smtimes he ask me to join them.
afterall,im a full timer.not much life
soon,when he go NS,he wont be able to enjoy that much liao
thou very sian & gets emo on my own bt no choice have to uds

i just wish that he will learn how to control his money more carefully
SERIOUSLY
i do not have that much to support that much already
money goin out & dont have any savings for god knows how long liao
sad.
must buck up
thats y sometimes will pek chek on my own when im stress & he dont know
he do save alil,but i dont cos he dont have money & i need to spend more on us
its really very chor la.
hais
get worried when he always spend his money so much in the begining of he month
& get so damn broke from mid-month
its not 计较
but really must control lor.i cannot keep on spendin so much

希望宝贝会明白我在担心什么 (:
他快要进兵了!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAISSS

2009-08-16T11:44:00.000-07:00

how i wish i can be like anyone of them who are successful.
anyone of the online sellers that are doin well.
well,of cos there are always cases of people who didn do well or didn get to earn much
BUT,i really wish i got their luck & capability of doin all these man.
like running the blogshops inside out including knowin how to deal with the design of the blog,the purchasing of stocks,where to get lobangs & all,how to do the formats for orders,modelling & stuffs,websites & all.
OMG.thats like super lotsa things to do man.i cant do any of them!
by thinking,i cant even step out the 1st step man,
and also NO CAPITAL.how i wish i have friends ard me that we can work together hand in hand for al these.but i dont have.even if its baobei,my style & evrythg is way off diff from his.even thou he is my Bf & it wil be the best if hes the one there supporting me but i guess not.we will quarrel & argue & nonstop.cos hes more suitable to help HER.only friends can discuss things properly & its hardly couples.their styles like what he say is he like one,so yea.

i can only envy & envy
WHY!!!!!!

HP got prob.FB got prob.Blogger got prob.like i cant do anythg in blogger now.no uploading of photos,no changing of fonts/size & evrythg!WTHHHHH

evrythg jus hates me la.stupid or what @#$^^^$#@#$%^&

whats worst than disappointment.the heartache & all

2009-08-08T20:00:00.000-07:00

its back to the TRUST word again i guess
whos the one who ask me to have more confidence in him?to trust him?
im trying so hard to forget bout the lies he made the previous times.trying so hard to believe him & all
so its my fault to get all tis crap?
shes rly acting like a bitch which i got no other words to describe her.
trying to act nice in front of me?behind me?she always tries to say thgs bout me in front of my bf?
who is she?JUST BCOS SHES SO FUCKING CLOSE TO HIM?
they are workin together & stuffs are thgs that i CNT control & so im tryin not to worried bout all these.
trying to accept cos its reality that i have to face.bout them sms-ing each other evryday?so other than workin together,they have tons & millions of quality time to talk & all,almost evryday messaging each other?guess its endless topic.& me?i have to be the one finding thgs to talk to my bf worrying that he will be bored & all.trying to talk so much even when me myself am tired after shitty work.
when shes sick?where is her bf?why he have to care so damn much?i uds that frens shd care for each other.but she dont have to like OHH PT IM SICK..PT IM HAVING FEVER..blah blah blah.
i have been trying to put on a smile in front of her.just like shinyi's bday that day.its been long that i never go out with them.i DO NOT want to put on black face or what.this is my respect to both my bf & that bitchy so called once "fren".i dont used to hate her until i see too much TOO MUCH of her,& he just makes me hate her even more by doin all these.i pretend that its ntg.
shes those kind that is super 不自动
扮猪吃老虎.theres so many of this kinda ppl around.& she prove me that shes ONE BIG TIME GOOD IN ACTING BLUR/INNCOENT.
i have been saying,i know its nt very nice to look thru the msg.But its only hers that i get to worried cos i know each time there will just be thgs that im gona make myself puke blood when i see.after the last time i see & make a big fuss cos im damn pissed.NOW.i have seen too much of thgs that i cnt take it.
1.am i a maid or what?complaining to him that his bag is so heavy yet actin nice to help him carry his bag?for goodness sake,i dont even know that my bf's bag is in shop.if i know i would take & carry for him on my own & dont need her to take & kp so much.wheres yw?never ask her to carry my bag?OHH,i dont dare to ask her take lor,see whether she will auto ask later not.FUCK U.luckily im so auto to ask from her the bag to carry myself IF NOT,shes gona say me again.

2.wanting to watch G.I Joe mayb in a group?cos i have not meetup w jay or what for some time just trying to find a chance to meetup.so def not oli me jay n him wad.so find ppl that he will oso noe to watch together.& i super regret telling him that i tot of askin her & his bf.i ask him maybe he wana help to ask her & her bf,he told me to msg on my own.FINE!after the time slot is confirm i will msg them.but why must he even lie on this?i noe he sees her more & always got msg her.so why act like he dont wana ask her?but at the back doin it?still say dont let me know.ask her to act blur??& why must she say SHE WONT ASK ME ONE LA.WAIT TIL SHE ASK THEN SAY LOR.yayeayeaaaa.pls lor.I REALLY DID WANA ASK.jay n him should noe.BUT she say this kinda thg.挑拨..after knowing this,of cos im fucking pissed off.tell me.who wont???tring to cool myself down when bathing.thinking of whether to give him another chance.& i did,cos i so wana trust him & hopes he will not lie to me.BUT AGAIN,he did it to hurt me.i ask him nicely somemore.& he answers my qn w/o thinking that he DID NOT ask her yet & all.so deep in my heart,im speechless.

have i not given u chance b?
have i not been showing more tolerance as compared to last time?
have i not been a gd gf,& so thats how u treat me?
have i done anythg wrong not to deserve a bf i can trust & shows me that he can be trust through his actions & not word?
have i not pretended well enough,trying to accept al things regarding to her?
SO,whats more impt,her or me..its gona be a stupid qn.cos i noe u wont have an ans.u once told me,its gona be me.BUT u didn show me?

my heart is aching.its FUCKING pain.i hate the lying parts & all.
i hate having cold wars knowing u wont be there for me cos u will not know whats wrong.
hate being on my own.bt maybe i guess sometimes i need to learn to fall & be independent.
will there be anyone catching me when i fall?
guess not anymore...

2009-08-03T11:09:00.000-07:00

prawning & bbqing ur own prawns is a new exp for me.THOU i didn caught any single prawn but im still happy with our 1st prawning outing.just that its a bit boring at times,felt so sleepy after waking up early in the morning.& always kena scold by him.left 4 dead + prawning.aww.forever!boyfriend are always losing temper to their gf and tends to be nicer and more gentle to others.standard.

sometimes i just feel that he always got nothing much to really talk to me at times?
but i know that its not that he dont really talk
cos when he talks,sometimes he can talk alot!!!!
but he always have more things to talk to his friends but to me,im the one doin the talking
and always attitude-ing me or act cool to me :(
its okay if its not always,but i just dont like it..seeing him with his friends he trying to talk so much in front of others,but with me its diff.

2009-08-03T11:02:00.000-07:00

希望越大就会有失望
im lookin forward to our outing ytd
imagine and thinking on my own the things we gona do & the places we will be goin that with a car will be more convenient & all startin from he's gonna pick me up from work blah blah.but none of them happen.

:(

quite upset la.bt its still okay.just wish that if there's a next time he will check out the things earlier to avoid unnecessary probs.Still,im okay as long as we are meeting & we are happy can le.

2009-08-01T08:45:00.000-07:00

i hate having flu!hmmp
anyway baobei seems to be so busy man.so many fren's bday & gathering to go
as compared to him,i really feel so NO LIFE lor
i dont know why cotton on didn call me. :( so sad
im tired of waiting le,never get in then forget it
just that i have to pray for another better job again.hur
i cant wait to leave Longchamp.

anyway tmr baobei is gona rent the car
rather excited cos he's pickin me up frm work (:
i so love the feel when ur bf picks u up from work or what,esp by car
got the homely feel.HA
hope we will be happy happy x 100000000 tmr!

*pls pls give me a better job!!

2009-07-26T08:39:00.001-07:00

im full.
im bloated.
im BROKE.
hahs.no link.
dont feel good being broke.
i dont wana niam bout money issues to baobei all the time
but i just wana let him noe that i cant always spend that much when we go out when i dont have much now
last time stable pay can save more of cos okay to pay more but now a bit too siong for me.
i noe he definitely will uds.bt sometimes i wish i dont have to worry so much.
so many things i wana do with him,i wana go with him,
i wana buy so many things too!
wish evryday will be a happy day,a happier day
wish EVRYTHG will goes smoothly for me,him & us

2009-07-24T10:25:00.000-07:00

actually i just dont know if hes realli that t&c that he always just dont get me.so smtimes its no point explaining my thoughts when hes so blur and insensitive at times.
so may things to him it may be NOTHING.but its not.
like im just trying to think why must i bear with him giving mi all sorts of problems related to her.he knows i dont like them like this and hes always testing my limits of how far can i tahan?
like of all people but her to work together if got chance.of cos,its cos she got the capabilty.but like i have to think positive!HOW?

how do i feel when i feel im so useless of no help and all.of cos working tog is hard as a couple especially.but like im nothing that kinda feel,will u uds?i have to see my bf workin hand in hand with her?all the way from last time so many times i feel so upset cos of her and always giving mi new challenges over her..

who doesnt want his bf to do well?
of cos i do!
but?
i dont know............

2009-07-21T10:38:00.000-07:00

evryday goin to work is all about complaining,whats new?nothing but more n more grumbling
its not evryday that i can work with colleagues that i prefer
there are definitely many times that ive to work with people MLRs that i cant take it
bossy,act innocent,act blur,act like they know evrythg!
roster wise,change n change..trying to uds.and i noe probably after this whole mth
things will change and be better.but i just cant find any reasons to stay on now.
i really wish i can get another job and leave immediately.
一时冲动 thought of quitting NOW!but i cannot afford to and i dont wana make another wrong choice again after quitting gior..hur..
evryday go to work think of $$$,thats my oli motivation now.no work means no $$$ uh.
but evryday im thinking,and comparing to my frens or people ard.why are they blessed with such good luck and life.they dont have to work like cows and get paid peanuts,they get high pay job easily or they are just rich.sighs.its so sick to wana get so many things and u practically know u cant get it.i dont mind now as long as i get a really stable job w better income n start saving again.but if continues at longchamp is IMPOSSIBLE.evrythg is envy.i wish my life turns better.not hat i dont wana work hard but i hope it will be less tough for me.better life,more hopes.

*i saw melissa tdy in shop and i dont know why i feel so.................scared and ganchiong.after years,i just dont wish to bump into certain people again on the streets or wadever.so i turn away and hide in the store room

2009-07-15T09:34:00.000-07:00

i was shocked when he suddenly told me he loves me and all
and that he just wana tell me that
and ask me what i wana eat,he prepare for me.
isnt that the him i used to have
i tot maybe he had done something guilty thats y he's doin these
hope im thinkin too much.
why is it when im so upset and confused then i suddenly get to feel him :(
bt anyway i appreciate that just that..
im lost..needs to work a way out..

accounting on fri and tmr im workin again.hais.tell me,where do i have time to learn n remember?and my business mgmt is.....hais.i dont need to score well,i just want a pass.pls!but its too late now.i really dont wana retake.waste money waste time to stress again.i just wana get free from studies.

2009-07-15T08:03:00.000-07:00

SMILE! yes smile.

明天会更好!对吗? (:

byebye tummy.byebye fats.byebye worries.

2009-07-15T05:47:00.000-07:00

just now i still wonder why tdy baobei is so sweet when chatting w me on the phone
sweeeeeet~

after exam i feel so dead,somehow i got this bad feeling that i may not pass
and rly affects my mood for accounting which im nt even good at.shitty feel
whole day from mrning didn rly eat.oli ate 2 pcs of carrot cake.
feel so giddy on bus.
when im reachin wdlands,saw his msg.
and ...
i just dont know why isit that evryday i just have to face a new challenge.
its like tdy i may be angry and after that i learn and try to 看开一点
then tmr he just will do that thing again to let me worried or feel the jealousy thing again.
.
ive been trying to control my feelings.but have you spare a thought for me?maybe yes for one time then another day back to the same old u.
ive been also trying to understand that shes in the same workplace w him now and its something that cnt be change and i cant control..sometimes maybe he will plan to go out with them.BUT why?its like always la.ytd suddenly steamboat,then tdy say go town buy his things..then suddenly meet them for dinner?
so if i pretend im ok,that means its always gona happen?and ive to bear with it??
ahhhhhh
so maybe i should try not to feel the anger or sadness or jealousy.can i?
cos after so so so many times.im sick of feeling upset over this.
i guess ive no choice but ta tahan.cos its always happening..

2009-07-14T08:39:00.000-07:00

有时候真的不了解为什么他会dont mind 我的肥肉,还有一些别的问题

比起很多女孩子我算是真的蛮肉肉的.. 外面也有很多漂亮的

谁会不喜欢漂亮和美丽的东西?

他的脾气有时也会让我吃不消,

但是人都不是完美的啊

所以彼此包容还是最重要的 (:

我很想要能够看的开

不需要担心这个那个,可以吗?

真的能够100%/甚至101% 的相信一个人吗?

还是很害怕过于信任一个人而失望的feel

我会受不了

2009-07-14T03:27:00.000-07:00

what's wrong w this word- DARLING? lol.
seldom use this word actually.just when the feel is there dan use..

anyway YTD is ....... un-explain-able kinda feel
at Sakae i really dont understand why does he have to get so worked up over HER if there's ntg?
and he himself is being over-sensitive too.
maybe he didn realise it?
probably cos he's tired and im tired so it makes my meetup a bit gonecase.and both of us just aint at the right mood
i dont know why but i jus couldnt control my tears and all
lousy!
.
but why do i still go over when we are both so tired?
i oso dont know.i just wana have more time together.evrytime we meet for a while only makes me feel so sian.
.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAS
thinkin of the many funny things that happened at his house (:
make me laugh til i cry man
even tdy at work when im alone i thought of the few funny things
-what's with his fingers??itchy fingers always anyhow wipe things on his bed.eeew
-strawberry???barley??? LOL.i feel so bad but i rly didn know.....: (
-Me biting him in the middle of the night.that's rly funny to the max la.dont know why so jus nice.and evrytime we sleep tog,i always do stupid stuffs.HA

2009-07-12T09:06:00.000-07:00

no life noo life nooo life-and that's my life :(
how pathetic
evryday is work work n work.waiting to signout during work cos time always pass so damn slow
and 3 more days exams!
ah ha
tdy im also tired,how to start studying.yes.excuses!but im rly tired.hais
god wont bless mi this time round i guess
thou i always 临时抱佛脚 but this time maybe 抱不到 leh
hmms
siannn

2009-07-10T10:18:00.000-07:00

i really wanted to go baobei's hse tdy not for anythg but just cos i miss him and at that point of time i jus wana hug him and i dont dare to think bout work n exams
but,i know hes concern for my exams.hais.or maybe hes already planning to go out w his buddy so i cnt go over.that's ok.even for awhile.for tdy.ESP TDY.jus needed that hug badly.
.
seriously in no mood to even start browsing thru my notes.how to pass?accounting sucks and i hate studying.i cnt cnt cnt!but i cnt cnt cnt fail!its my last 2 papers but im mentally tired and blocked.ughhhhhh

2009-07-10T10:15:00.000-07:00

Girlgirl says: I miss gorgor!
Tootsie says: I miss daddy!
Me: I miss YOU badly ever since i started this stupid job!

:(

2009-07-09T08:45:00.001-07:00

i also wish to go redang
basically anywhr to have fun and with the right person/friends?
but i just cant go :(
im telling myself PLS BE CONTENTED!
and save more $ now is more impt
cos no $ means no holiday and all
Longchamp isnt that bad as wad i thought
but maybe cos of the malays environment?dont rly like it
and also the work till so xin ku and get lil $ pay?
but w coming up incentives and group target that heard from taka staffs say they actually evry mth oso cn hit and get additional 200 bucks?which is nt bad la with the other comms add tog.BUT provided that i can sell leather handbags la.for them is easy.
i think im rly nt suitable for perosnal comm style.不喜欢
not used to it.
yea yea.
im rly tired!giving myself excuses for being tired and have not started on studying
last2 modules!and yet i just couldnt start my engine
.

2009-07-09T08:43:00.000-07:00

stay positive!(:

加油

2009-07-08T10:46:00.000-07:00

so hot la.i hate it when im super tired then sleep early liao in the end wake up.Hur~
haha,i only know when i wake up the 1st thing is tot i didn wake up for work
and i just wana talk to bf.hmms
.
i just wana change a job ASAP
actually so far so good im contented with my working environment at taka
the people there are pretty nice people,at least for the time being OK
but afterall,im from ION and not taka
so i still have to adapt to the NEW environment AGAIN.
quite sian that i didn get to stay at Prg outlet for training too cos have to learn the boutique style again and oso the people there which my my real colleagues in ION.
i cant tahan this kinda shift seriously
but im trying to bear w it
exams are coming but i have not started.not excuses but really am too tired too start
tmr setup,evryday mostly have to prepare for the new shop,arghhhh.gona be even more zZz
.
i wana change job cos I WANA HAVE MORE FLEXIBLE HOURS WORK TO ACCOMPANY HIM
so that we can have more time tog.Oct seems so far but yet like very fast
and now,that when i worried more,i miss him even more
he's gona be busy working now,more hardworking.partly for more $ but oso...hmms
but its so diff to get a job w OK pay like gior and also god environment and OK working hours.
probably im asking too much
but what to do?
i dont wana have such kuku shifts so tiring and work so hard bt pay so lil.
i dont think its even worth it la
but i oso uds that shd stay longer if can,to rly see the situation
but definitely not like how i quit gior so sudden til jobless.cnt afford le la
.
i dont know why i always got this feeling that i need him more than he needs me now
usually its oso like that la
the one who starting liking/loving someone will be the one gets sian 1st
and the one who doesnt love that person that much will be the one in the end suffering cos he/she loves that person MORE.
.

2009-07-06T13:01:00.000-07:00

actually dont feel like goin over baobei's hse ytd de
after that night's quarrel
but in the end i still went over cos I just wish to see him more?accompany him more when i can?
dont feel good so recently really feel like drinking.hmms
dont know why
maybe cos will feel better when u are drunk and i can sleep easily which is good

yea
tmr!another work day + haissssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
tmr onwards i have to 忍 ! 看开点啊依雯
wish that i dont have to be bothered by them
but if i really dont means i dont care
which i seriously dont want!
hope that he will keep his promise and dont over do it
hais

2009-07-04T10:06:00.000-07:00

比这个还痛的是心痛的感觉

最讨厌吵架的感觉

2009-07-04T09:40:00.000-07:00

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
theres just so many times i feel like dropping a msg cos i care
HOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its 12:45am
almost a day
yea.its oli a day BUT NOOOOOOOOOOO
its torturing me

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2009-07-04T08:43:00.000-07:00

just got hm not long from work
.
managed to cry myself to sleep ytd nite
its been real long that i had such a bad nite

.
how do u feel when u wake up and that person that u care most no longer cares bout u
when u are checking ur hp all the time just to see if that person contact u
when u just dont have the mood to bother bout other things,trying to make yourself busy with work
when u are wondering does that person think of u,miss u like u do?

Hais

i hate cold war
i hate the moment i step out of shop and immediately i think of our probs
and my tears starts to flow down and on the train my tears almost start flowing again
and i really have to force myself to not cry or i just cant stop
but it's time that we need to let each other cool down and think what's best for us
.
how long more?
or is it really the end?

i do miss him badly
but what bout him?
: (

2009-07-03T10:53:00.000-07:00

my blisters are really killing me
no joke
hais
PAIN

痛死我了! :(

i just dont know how to say out how i feel
trying to take things positively now for the time being
i wish evrythg will be ok!all those that im thinking about
dont dare to repeat and say out to baobei
but im not feeling better even thou i din say out

2009-07-01T10:43:00.000-07:00

　瓶子们若爱上对方，真的是占有欲好强的。他们轻易不表现出来，因为他怕他们过强的占有欲会泄露了他爱你不能没有你的底牌。不过如果他们开始限制你吃你的醋，那他一定是好爱好爱你的。　　　　瓶子们有时候真的很难真正相信他们的爱人。而且越是爱有时候越难相信。因为他们的谎言有时说的好多所以总觉得别人也是在欺骗。　　　　千万不要轻易伤害了瓶子们的心，瓶子们对爱情很没有承受力的。你可能想象不到，当你刚刚气痛了你的瓶子或是和你的瓶子谈分手跳脚离开的同时，他们可能就会打电话给他们的红颜知己或是有暖味关系的朋友们，说一些过分的话做一些过分的事甚至当夜就会和他们发生什么……，瓶子们不是想背叛你，瓶子们只是好悲伤，找不到更合适的方式来发泄。好多被伤害过的瓶子都会生活得很烂很灰色

k..this is really very accuarate in quite a few points and suddenly i just thought of "him" and baobei.

一个让我很伤心的人有时候还会想到的痛很难形容
一个让我很担心的人 think its really like what the horoscope says
almost everything quite true

FATTY BUMBUM

2009-06-25T05:19:00.000-07:00

OHH NOOOOOOOOO :(

i seriously dont wana become like this one day

but somehow

i know that if i go on gaining weight like this and give up on my fat body

i WILL look like this

OMG

plssss nooooooo

dont know why within this 2 weeks i really feel the changes in my body

like really have that bigger lump of fats on my tummy

even thou all along i have fat tummy

but just that a even bigger one now man

arhhhhhhhh

i know i cant always tell baobei this

cos i dont wana create something to quarrel

so better not

i dont wana wear my clothes and can see that big piece of fats on my tummy squeezing out la

like im gona start work soon : (

i just eat alot recently esp at home when papa da bao for me and all

hope i will lose some weight soonnnnnn after i start work!

Y(and i still dont uds why baobei can take it that im so fat.but yet im grateful that he doesnt mind me for who i am and how i look like.) Y

2009-06-22T06:44:00.000-07:00

the one who says it's stupid yet he enjoy taking pics of tootsie

nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

have been sleeping very late recently.NO GOOD NO GOOD!

4am 5am..and can still rmb the worst that day over at baobei's house

really very pek chek la when you just cant sleep when you really feels like sleeping.hmmp

ytd watched the korean ver of meteor garden for 5hrs!

once you start and you fall in love with the show

you just cant stop!

its addictive!

i dont even fancy F4 taiwan ver nor meteor garden but its just NICE for the korean one

sweettt!

BUT now i think it's time to do research for proj le

: (

hurrrr

JIAYOU!

2 last papers to go

2009-06-18T11:14:00.000-07:00

VESPA IS SO CUTE!!!

some time back i actually have the idea of taking a bike license

BUT baobei dosent like me taking bike cos he hates it and he thinks it's dangerous

then i remember after that he told me

he feel like getting vespa?!

and now the topic is back?

hahas.he say its not good to ride a bike and all but out of the sudden he says

he thought of getting a license.

i wont stop him if he wants to

provided that he got enough cash to support him

cos i really DONT want to see him so poor after spending the money on the theories and tests

then in the end we have to be back to our so call "poor" life

but im like a bit confused la

now this later that then happpy say want not happy i also cannot learn?

for me,

I want to learn

but I really need to find time!

6days/week of work is no joke man

and I don know if I should spend the money on this which I dont know whether

I will have the $$$ to get myself a bike?

few hundreds on license and few Ks on Vespa!!

I really need to think twice

cos i dont wana regret

If i have the extra money and Im rich of cos i will take but not when like

I 辛辛苦苦 earn the money and save and always 1 shot spend a big sum of amount

and I so sucks in traffic stuffs.lol.if i pass,i think it's a miracle bah

it's good to have a license cos I dont think i will have the $ to get a car
IFFFF i pass,then its a great boost for me that I should try getting a car license too?
it's something to call my OWN transport

I hate memorising traffic stuffs
I dont even have the TIME and MONEY to waste on trying to get the license
even if pass,I wont bear to spend so much $ on a bike?
fuel and all are heavy costs too.the insurance and all,im so noob!dont know all those things too.It's not easy to save lotsa $ for all these

2009-06-14T05:06:00.000-07:00

im rotting my ass at home
just dont feel like doin anythg
online online and online.so bored
i miss baobei
but i dont wana msg him now
just want him to happily go out with them w/o me being so extra
hurrrrr
sometimes i just dont know
how......
YY is right,ive got no life
and sometimes i just hate ppl discussing bout me
but forget it
i just dont wana care cos i dont give a damn right?yea
all along ive got no life
nvm,i will make my life what i want cos i noe that making myself happy is very impt

2009-06-12T02:22:00.001-07:00

i hate fri cos i hate accounting

no1 uds hw much i hates this subj

hw much i dislike goin to class when u feel so leftout when u duno ANYTHG even the basics

i just hate it

my last 2 modules yet im struggling like that in my heart/mind

and and and i just duno whether i will raise white flag

and surrender

maths related stuffs rly sucks

going out now.

2009-06-11T09:49:00.000-07:00

after BINTAN its BATAM!

i so wana enjoy myself before i start my 6days work week.whee

BUT

i dont know

how to not feel worried and sad when my savings goes

so fast

when im jobless this 2 mths

yet i really feel OK with spending those money on getaway trips

its meant to DE-STRESS

and i really love being away from work,sch,SPORE

and how baobei will remind me nt to bring my worries over

and just ENJOOYYY(:

cos Bintan really works

whenever i was to think bout all those stuffs

i see him and i try my very best nt to

how can me and baobei meet and not spend money

i dont want to be so damn kelian la

but somehow i find it quite xiong

feel so broke la

just imagine each time ard 30-40bucks and hw many times

and other than that, so many other things that needs to spend

not to care?

not to feel jealous?

not to worried?

not to bother?

not to ask?

over-sensitive?

seriously!!

i just dont know what's wrong with me man

nothing better to do?

but i just dont like dont like.........

"them"

sometimes i asked myself bout whats wrong

whats with my possessive-ness?

im never like that

but why do i always have to get so damn agitated whenever each time they go out

is it just bcos he lies to me before regarding her?

dat plays a part.

and....?????????????

o/a its just dont like.

i know 1 day...

he will not care bout how i care n feel

but at least now i just hate it

hurrrrrrrrrrrr

i dont know

@#$%^&$#@@$%&*

2009-05-28T10:56:00.000-07:00

他对我的温柔让我不知道我到底在想什么

im kinda afraid of chatting w baobei on phone now

im just worried that we may quarrel again

so i will try to cut short

its not that i wana be cold towards him but

i just dont know how,HOW to talk to him

but yet,he talks to me in a way that i LOVE?

back to the gentle and nice bf?

WHY?

why when i start to think of all those bad things then it seems to be nothing

and not a problem?

hais

whole day was waiting for his msg,so wana msg him but yet i dont wan?

so contradicting

Bintan trip is coming

i just dont wana 破坏 this thing

WE WILL BE HAPPY THERE DE!!!!

YESSSSSSSS.and it WILLLLLL

im convincing myself to change my mindset to +

Hahahahaha

easier said than to do it

2009-05-27T11:54:00.000-07:00

i feel so useless

i dont have confidence

thats me

i hates to be alone walking in streets,doin shopping

i hates to go into book stores,but i did

i nv tried playin alone in arcades before,i did twice to kill time

i hates making decision when im alone cos the more i will regret

i hates to feel left out esp in a group

BUT all bcos of him

and these things ive been goin thru more n more recently

i hate it but i dont hate him

i uds that he has his grad show thing to rush to do to prepare

accompany him to sch today for his grad show

in the end i have to walk around alone after ytd waiting at PS

i didn expect that it's gona be something like that

i feel so tiny when he's with his grp of friends

i know NOTHING and i dont belong there

all i can do is smile and smile when i dont feel comfortable at all

NOT his friend's prob but MY prob

to all the quarrels and all

i think we just cnt communicate on phone

i hate talkin to him on phone now

have been thinking evrytime

and now i seriously think we are not suitable to chat on phone

cos i duno wads the prob w him whenever he chats w mi on phone

FUCK!

i hate you ONG YEE WEN

and your screwed up life now

@#%&*#%&_&%$#@#W#%R^@#$^&*%#@!

2009-05-25T08:21:00.000-07:00

COUNTING DOWN 1 WEEK TO BINTAN!

i tot i shd be happy and looking forward

not that i dont but

some thgs just keeps me......

i know baobei dosent mind my BIG FAT TUMMY and all

and he expects me to wear bikini or wad

BUT seriously la...i do not have good figure

he just dont know how am i feeling

i wana be those kinda gf that cn give him what he wants too

but i cant

i wana enjoy my trip w him

REALLY

i wish that evrythg will goes smoothly

PLEASEEE i beg

i know he hates me complaining but if i dont turn to him

who can i turn to?

but i know its rly v fan

i got no other choice

he's the only one

but each time i see the pek chek him makes me even more sad

2009-05-15T12:09:00.000-07:00

有时候我真的很累

总觉得好像快要不能呼吸一样

我没有没有没有没有想要吵架

我更不想每天晚上都哭着去睡觉

那种感受一点都不好受

我们的问题已经越来越多了吗?

then why do we have ta ALWAYS quarrel?

is it me??

its v simple isnt it..

im a lousy asshole GF..idont know how ta love

i sucks in evrythg

i cant give him what he wants

or he cant give mi what i want?

EVERYTHING!!!!

just seems wrong

i just dont wana stay at home and rot evryday,wads wrong?

i hates ta stay at home alone

i will start ta think of all my probs

i dont know how ta quarrel and pretend as if we r ok but when we r NOT OK

its so hard ta be fake

now i just have ta tell myself and remind myself

that i shall not always compare myself..

learn ta love myself more and do not criticise myself

probably i will jus nag myself in my mind and not say out

i shall not be a 大女人

dont expect mi ta be YES YES YES cos thats not mi

im still gona be myself but i will watch out in case the lil thgs become

the thgs that he dislikes..

I WILL TAKE NOTE

2009-05-10T05:27:00.000-07:00

baobei is busy w his FYP this few days

so i have ta be guai.a guai gf not ta disturb him

awwwww

and now that im jobless at home,i feel so lonely

and starts ta worrrryyyyyy

I NEED A JOB

w/o a job means no income=no shopping=no going out=no good food=no entertainment

how can!!!!

i wana have a stable job

i dun wana lead a life that i need ta worry

i hates ta work but i noe its no choice..

this is my life and that ive ta accept it

i dont have a good life

ive ta depend on myself so much that im getting sick of it..

手停口停 uh

NONONO

i really wish that i can get a job soon and so that i can rly enjoy myself for this few weeks

before i start to rly work again

i will only get ta enjoy when i noe that i can have a stable job

3yrs+ i dont have ta worry cos i work nonstop

i cnt afford ta rest

tmr im goin ta the duno wad NTUC CTR,i dont even noe whr is it after searching the map online

lousy direction map

or lousy mi la..whatever

shd i go sentosa w baobei?

wad im thinking is like im afraid it wont work

im so scared he will feel bored w mi

im scared he dont get ta enjoy his 21st bday

hmmmmmm

HOW

i guess he's gona be happier w all hs frens but like i sucks in planning la

im a lousy gfffffffff

feel bad for him

but i jus wan him ta be happy

smtimes ta mi HOME DAY is boring BUT i love his company

cos of him i somehow learn ta be contented

back ta wad i think and feel last time

but still i need him by my side ta always remind mi of this

2009-05-01T10:24:00.000-07:00

2009-05-01T10:12:00.000-07:00

BINTAN TRIP IS CONFIRMED!

im excited and happy and sad and worried at the same time

excited as i have nt been to Bintan before and they say its a great place for getaway

but they say 3D2N like too much.hmms.hopefully we both will enjoy it

happy cos finally can go and get a break and im goin w baobei

sad cos i didn get to go BKK which i can get hell lotsa fun time shoppin,massage and all like a queen :( i MUST go another time

worried cos IM NT A OUTDOOR PERSON.hais.as much as i wana accompay baobei in outdoor activities,tanning n all BUT i cannot.this is a very major prob that only i myself noe.sighs.wearin bikini is a NONO thing for me.have been stressing over this too.but he dun uds and wun uds de.i dont have nice fig eh.wear wad!

1 more weekof work and im FREEEEEE like a bird

spells STRESSED

i noe like finally i can relax a bit and maybe have fun and catching up time w frens.but how do i really enjoy myself when i noe i do not have a job on hand?

it makes me so sian la

i cannot have full level of fun leh

hurrrrrrr

*pray hard that evrythg will be smooth and i CAN get a nt too bad job ASAP

*and me and baobei will be happy happy

*his FYP will be GOOD and stress stress go away.灵感快点来! (:

finally

2009-03-25T11:42:00.000-07:00

finally my proj for case studies is DONE

yea!

BUT...the tough one is coming soon.i hate exams!

have to thanks baobei ta help me with some research and the contents thg

if not,i will be even slower

3 days/nights of chiong-ing

thou i went ta so call rest but fall aslp

i still chiong for many hrs + continuous days of working

damn shag la!

can die

ytd baobei went ta alvin's chalet w siew mai

IM PRETTY OK w that

maybe cos im too tired to rly go 烦 bah

i dont feel that upset partly of my personal point of view that i feel that

shinyi is rather "safe" as in,i feel comfortable with her

but,thgs are hard to say too

shinyi n jovi are very close too

just like baobei n jovi

sometimes i feel like slapping myself!!

why do i always have to make myself upset?

why do i have to start the topic of HER everytime i chat w baobei

i know it spoils our relationship ALOTTT

but....

sighs

i cant deny the fact that i care alot bout this and its super impt to mi

but like wad baobei says

he got no ways to make mi feel better for this thg

other than he try to cut down on sms n meeting her

i will try to not keep on thinking

but can i???

TRUST-somehow ever since all the quarrels over her,i dont rly know what

i can do to TRUST.

not that i dont love him

i love him

but i dont know how to maintain a r/s like this

HOWHOW COWCOW

over-sensitive?

2009-03-18T11:34:00.000-07:00

HAIS x 1000000000000000000

left school early wanted to go home and rest or what

in the end

STUPID 961 make me wait like nobody business

f---ing 40 mins for a bus,waiting alone at the bus stop doin ntg

STUPID boy who's soso in deep sleep

like PIG

make me squeeze only,sit till very gao wei

NVM

what's best??

today is our 5th mth tog

i won again

SO?

we lalallaala again...

i swear i DIDNT mean anythg much when i say

" not like somebody dont care "

why is he so sensitive??

he always say he dont like to be accused/assumed somethg

ah har

i never uh.........

so why get so worked up?

i change my mood to be better and called him

trying to talk to him nicely

and this is what i get back in return

talking bout holidays,bday and all

giving me all this shit

or maybe to him is im giving him all sorts of shit

i dun uds

why must we quarrel almost everyday?

i hate the after that feeling

i feel so...............

sad+angry+disappointed+lonely

and my heart HURTS

i cnt take it le

but somehow my heart is trying very hard to pull me back

sighs

"Never go to bed mad. Stay up and fight." - Phyllis Diller

how i wish we can talk

but then

dont know why

with baobei its so hard to " talk "

and he seems like he dont know how to talk to mi the main points

beat around the bush,in the end more sian

dont even feel like arguing

we are both very stuborn

hurrr

and tmr R WE STILL MEETING?

..................................................

TRUST

2009-03-17T10:59:00.000-07:00

彼此之间的信任

真的可以很快的就找回来吗?

JOVI

why isit that we always have to quarrel over her?

HAIS

i dont even check on my bf's sms b4

baobei is the 1st one and ive asked myself

why do i need to do that?

bcos i feel insecure?

yesss.i think so

bcos i always think too much?

maybe bah

and so coincidence

for twice,there's something that i need to be MAD about

1st-content of the msg

2nd-this time totally never tell me anythg bout him meeting her

seriously,which gf can heck care bout all these?

some more he stil can tel her that i dont really like him to meet her so often

OMG!!i really is like speechless

he dont even know how awkward its gonna be lor

i can say im really much better and dont think that much after

baobei meet her less and all

and that i know he's trying very hard to make me happy

but

he SHOULD NOT have lie to me

white lies?

NO
i dont want

i just want him to be honest
its sososo impt to me
to keep our r/s going.that's the way to maintain

he says that he's not lying

then??????

tyring to pretend ntg that he did not meet her wait for her to finish work?

that they had dinner??

and pray hard that i dont know and wont know.

now that i know it by myself

im even more upset

and is rather disappointed with baobei

yet at the same time i uds that he's trying to not provoke me

or make me think too much

after that day

i have been thinking alot

i'd rather hope that i dont know bout it

it's a mark,a scar,a wound or whatever :(

that in me

i find it hard to accept

is the trust still there?

will there be another time that he will do it again?

can i still put my 101% on him?

SHIT

and i........

dont know :(:(:(

2009-03-11T09:35:00.000-07:00

LOL.i always laugh when i saw dis pic

i wana take more photos w baobei

NICE ones

But i cnt tk nice pic ;(

stress free PLS

2009-03-11T09:15:00.000-07:00

its been so many days hat ive not update anythg

hmmp..

have been thinking alot.ALOT recently

bout so many things

so fan and i noe im always thinking alot which is real bad for myself

MENSES problem-NB!its rly driving me crazy:(
School problems-projectsss and exams,deadline and all.me and bong try to split our 2 projs into 2.she focus on 1 and i focus on the other one.but somehow we did not go on the right track.that's very very sad and demoralising
Work-damn shag alr.cant wait for the time ta leave but whenever i tot of leaving w/o a new job makes me very uneasy and starts to worry
$$- w/o a new job,no income coming in.hais

its not that i wana worry so much

if i can choose to,of cos i wana SMILE (: everyday and be stress-free

and i DONT WANT to quarrel with baobei over these things of mine

money is an issue to me.YES.i love money

but i worked hard for all those hard earned money that i have,peanuts saving

and now thinking that ive to spend them all when time is so bad now

when i dont have a job!rly feel like crying la

sighs

yea.but guess ive no choice oso..its me that lets all these probs occur

anyway i hope that i wont be SO stress and less fan!!!

stay happy yeewen!!!!

I HOPE MY MENSES COME COME COME FASTTTTTER

I CANT WAIT LE LA~HAIS

sweet?or not

2009-02-19T10:28:00.000-08:00

ytd was all so sweet

tdy is all so screwed up!

baobei picked me up from school ytd

i cant wait for school ta end just ta see him

seeing him waiting for me,standing there

giving me the usual silly smile that never fails ta warm me up

he always give people the impression that im always the one bullying him

when im not!

this is so not fair

even Bong believes him

he bought me sweets,yet he dun like me ta eat sweets

still,i like it

now that we are both SO poor

our day is so simple

2 times of teochew porridge in a day

rotting at home,im so tired and lazy

the more i sleep the more tired i am

my memory is not good at all

some things i can clearly rmb but some things like

arguing over certain things,i really cannot rmb much right after that

need ta really go THINK then i can recall

so cannot rly rmb what we really argue about

some things like over the QOO thing and ya

its so freaking hot la..the sun is like.....#$%^^%%

that's why my face so sian plus bad mood

i just don't like the ugly photos dat we took

and i cant stand them

i know its my bad that i told him that i will send him dan delete

but out of the 2 ugly ones,at least i kept 1 uh

so wads the issue??

i noe he rly wants ta keep the photo

BUT

seriously think that he dont have ta be so attitude

SIGNING OFF IMMEDIATELY = HANGING UP THE PHONE

hais

and and and

after we just had the cold war at the bus stop its this shit

in a day

this is simply too much of shit that i can tahan

: ( : ( : (

he got his temper

i got my own temper

we are both very stuborn in a way
YES i noe im super attitude

but his attitude is also seriously bad uh

how how how

sighs

maybe we should both cool down and lets see if things will be better bah

holiday

2009-02-10T05:53:00.000-08:00

HOLIDAY uh HOLIDAY,i need you!

have been waiting to go for a holiday for so long already

ever since that jerk pangseh me

其实忘记一个人并没有想象中难

我可能没有完全忘记

可能还会有点会在意他和她过的多好

毕竟我以前真的很喜欢他

我以前只是希望说如果有一天分手的话

我不想要是因为第三者

我不想要一个很烂的分手理由

我更不想要讨厌他

但是他却让我最最最失望

从他身上我学到了很多

也不否认他以前是一个非常好的男朋友

所以现在的我知道人是会变的

尤其是男人

可以一眨眼就变成另一个人

我告诉我自己

不可以太依赖别人

还是要有保留这样一来就不会这样容易受伤害

就算受伤伤害也能减到最底

但是有时候我说到却做不到

一旦我开始依赖他的话

我就会很信任他

会又再一次被骗吗?

我不要!

我希望我能够和宝贝很开心的在一起(:

2009-02-03T07:23:00.000-08:00

有时候　我想要什么都不用去想

简简单单　的

什么都好

但往往事情　没有想象中的容易

要不然　就　不是人生了

都很复杂

~你的好脾气让我心情坏不起来~

说他傻他其实一点也不傻

但是就是

不懂为什么就不知不觉的慢慢地又爱他多一点

在乎他多一点

更容易为他吃醋

读书！还是　书读　我？

2009-02-03T07:00:00.000-08:00

超快的~

CNY 就要过了

一点都没有FEEL

以前小时候就很喜欢过新年

他们说长大后感觉就会变
是真的咯!

不是我要的是时代改变

我们也跟着变

今天大宝跟我做evaluation的时候

我真的超SIAN的

一想到stupid management 我就火大

对工作我的心也不在

对读书更死

完了啦咳!

烦死了

走一步算一步

到底要走到几时??

时间不多了而且很快7月如果可以顺利读完的话

找适合自己的工难吗?

有多难??

万一CMI 的话 HOW???

只是希望能够起码每一科都及格就好

AT　ＬＥＡＳＴ　ＰＡＳＳ

我也开心

HAISSS

2009-01-19T09:09:00.000-08:00

有时候我会像个闹情绪的小孩

但是

--------我

-------真

------的

-----不

----是

---有

--意

-的

你每次都会很努力的哄我

过后又更努力的让我生气

让我又爱又恨

i need more time.

2009-01-19T08:47:00.000-08:00

幸福的感觉来得快去的也快:(

i dont like people to nag at me!!

althou i know that they meant the best for me

im not stopping you to ask me from anything

BUT

not keep on asking over and over again

its soso so stressful

你懂吗?

你明白吗?

its not that i wanna just say and NO ACTION taken

im trying my very best to juggle

LOVE,WORK,STUDIES and all the things im planning to do

i seriously nidta plan well

if not its going to be like a 三分钟热度thing

which i hope it wont happen

兴趣是可以也需要培养的

(: 知足长乐

2009-01-18T14:17:00.000-08:00

今天一整天都陪宝贝

又是简简单单的一天

以前我会想说要做这个做那个,去这里去那里

但是

最重要的还是要开心就好,对吗?(:

没有什么比这个更重要了

我也会怕说是因为我们还没有在一起很久

所以so far so good

久了后会不会又像和他一样?

我才不要uh

就也没去哪里,今天去看赤壁2
他说我是男的 kuku nehneh!!

就因为我喜欢看这种戏

我觉得超好看的咯!!!!

当然会想到和我去看第一集的他

答应要一起看下集

我虽然会想但是i don't really care much now

他跟她过的好是他家的事

我也可以证明我过的没比他差(:

我会比以前更更爱自己

看人的时候也会更小心

不会让自己在被骗了

宝贝提早给我我的生日礼物

谢啦!<3

但是我不可以promise我不会在再买有的没的:x

真讨厌!被骗的感觉..

2009-01-17T04:02:00.000-08:00

M1 到底好不好?

从 Pri6 就开始用 M1 的line.

听每个人说都很像不好但是我却一直坚持要support M1..
现在就有点不甘愿!! 生气!!

谁知道它门的plan 是两年就过的还要自己去通知才会帮你换..

应该要买Omnia吗?

哈哈

受不了我自己,每次都拿不定主义

fickle-minded!

因为觉得有一点太MAN的feel

今天做工还可以咯..

蛮忙的

因为有starhub 的roadshow

超级多多多人!!!

所以我们的店也跟着忙

声音还没有完全好就跟他门一起le-long

因为一起喊比较有feel..(:

在做工的时候只要有一些我喜欢的人在就够了

就会觉得很fun

生病真的很不好受

2009-01-16T09:56:00.000-08:00

最讨厌生病了

喉咙好痛超痛有够痛的 @$#!#$%^

还好伤风好多了

这几天都很不够睡

很早就要爬起来死读书

真的要疯掉了!

做工累的时候,东西放很高拿不到的时候,没力气拿东西的时候

就会想到宝贝

他一定会觉得我很坏

但是我现在,这几天就特别想他啊

一个星期就只可以陪他一天

他一定很讨厌我哈

我要安排好我要做的事

等我真的做到的话我一定会超级开心的

我的第一个post

2009-01-16T09:34:00.000-08:00

这是我的第一个post

就只是想要把我的一些想法和心情写下来

我答应过我自己在2009年要过得充实一点,开心一点

但是一转眼,一月就要过了

就这样SHOOOMM的就过了

好快哦!

我看我真的需要快点想好我的plans

生日/新年就要来了

又要老一岁了 OMG 我不要口以吗?哈

要踏入2字头感觉好可怕

是有点夸张啦但是到了20 以后时间应该就更快过了吧

tsktsk

我不要!!

polkadotts

work is @#$%%^

my NUA day at home

whats worst than disappointment.the heartache & all

FATTY BUMBUM

finally

over-sensitive?

TRUST

stress free PLS

sweet?or not

holiday

读书！还是 书读 我？

i need more time.

(: 知足长乐

真讨厌!被骗的感觉..

生病 真的很不好受

我的第一个post

读书！还是　书读　我？

生病真的很不好受